The crucial part of your health
The crucial part of your health? What do you think? Is it eating a balanced, mostly plant-based diet, balancing your hormones, daily exercise, getting enough sleep – What do you guys think? Taking your vitamins, seeing your doctor for regular check-ups? These things might all seem important, even critical, factors to living a healthy life, but what if I told you that caring for your body was the least important part of your health? What do you think? I’m a physician, so if you’d told me that five years ago, that would have been total sacrilege.
I mean, I spent 12 years training because the body is supposed to be the foundation for everything in life. But what if I told you that the medical profession had it all back if the body doesn’t shape how we live our lives? What if the body is a mirror of how we live our lives? Think about it for a minute. Think about a time in your life where you weren’t living the life you were supposed to be living.
The body’s trying to tell you something
Maybe you were in the wrong relationship, or you were in some hostile work environment doing what you thought you should do, or you were creatively thwarted; you felt spiritually disconnected. And what if you started getting little inklings from the body, low physical symptoms? You know, the body’s trying to tell you something, and you ignore it because you’re supposed to do what you’re doing. And then the body decompensates. Can you think about a time in your life where something like that has happened? Yeah, I see a lot of Noddings.
The same thing happened to me. So this is what the body does. The body is brilliant this way; the body speaks to us in whispers. And if we ignore the whispers of the body, the body starts to yell. Millions of people in this country are ignoring the whispers of the body. We are suffering from an epidemic that modern medicine has no idea what to do. People suffering from this epidemic are fatigued; they’re anxious and depressed; they toss and turn at night.
They’ve lost their libido. They suffer from various aches and pains, so they go to the doctor because something is wrong. And the doctor runs an entire battery of tests, and the tests all come back standard, so the patient gets diagnosed as “well.”
I would get so freaking frustrated
Only the patient does not feel well. So she goes to another doctor, and she starts the whole process again because something is wrong. And it is wrong. It’s just not what she thinks. I used to work in a hectic managed care practice. I was seeing 40 patients a day. And I would get so freaking frustrated with these patients. They would come in, and it was so obvious they were suffering. And I’d run the tests, everything would come back healthy, I’d diagnose them thoroughly, and they’d look at me like No, I’m not well, something’s wrong.
And I felt so frustrated because I couldn’t come up with a diagnosis. And there was no pill, and there’s no pill to treat it, there’s no lab test to diagnose this epidemic, there’s no vaccine to prevent it, no surgery to cut it out. It wasn’t until years later that I realized I was suffering from my patients’ same epidemic.
By the time I was 33 years old, I was your typical physician. I had succeeded in everything I ever wanted to achieve in my life, I thought. I had all the trappings of success, the oceanfront house in San Diego, the vacation home, the boat, the big fat retirement account so that I could be happy one day in the future.
That point twice divorced me. I had been diagnosed with high blood pressure. I took three medications that failed to control my blood pressure, and I had just been diagnosed with precancerous cells of my cervix that needed surgery. More importantly, I was so disconnected from who I was, so totally disillusioned with my job, so completely spiritually tapped out that I didn’t even know who I was anymore.
I’ve got the right sexy lingerie
I’d covered myself up with a whole series of masks. I had the doctor mask, like when you put on the white coat, stand up on a pedestal, pretend you got it all together, you know it all. And I am also a professional artist, so I had the artist mask, where you’ve got to be, you know, dark and brooding, mysterious – starving, that wasn’t me either.
And then I had gotten married a third time, you know, third time is a charm. So now I’ve got this dutiful wife mask I’ve got wear, where I’ve got to get dinner on the table and make sure that I’ve got the right sexy lingerie on. And then I got pregnant, and all of a sudden, there’s this considerable mummy mask you’re supposed to wear.
You guys know the mummy mask. You’re supposed to instantly inherit the gene that makes you capable of baking the perfect cupcake. That’s where I was, wearing all those masks when my ideal storm hit. And at this point in my life, it was January 2006, and I gave birth to my daughter by C-section. My sixteen-year-old dog died. My healthy young brother wound up in full-blown liver failure from the antibiotic Zithromax, and my beloved father passed away from a brain tumor, all in two weeks.
I had just started to take a breath when my husband, who was the stay home for my newborn, cut two fingers off his left hand with the table saw. They say when your life falls apart, you either grow, or you grow a tumor. Fortunately for me, I decided to build; there was something in me. SARK called it my “Inner Wise Self,” which I call your Inner Pilot Light.
Be a good doctor
It said, “It’s time to take the masks off. It’s time to stop the madness. It’s time to stop doing what you should and start doing what you feel.” And at that moment, I knew I had to quit my job. Now, this was a huge deal. I spent 12 years training to be a doctor and hundreds of thousands of dollars, and we had all the trappings, you know, the house, the mortgage, all the doctor stuff, right? My husband was not employed, and I had a newborn.
I also had to pay a malpractice tail to buy my freedom, a six-figure malpractice tail, if I ever got sued in the future. So I decided to do it, and God bless my husband, who said, let’s jump together. And I quit my job, and I had to sell my house and liquidate my retirement account and move to the country, and I spent a few months painting and writing and licking my wounds.
It wasn’t until about nine months later. Nine months later, I realized you could quit your job, but you can’t stop calling. And I had been called at a very young age, I was seven years old, to the service, the practice, the spiritual practice of medicine, and that calling hadn’t gone away.
I had gotten so wounded by the system that I didn’t even notice it anymore, but it came back after I had rested and healed after a little while. But I knew I couldn’t go back. I couldn’t be seeing 40 patients a day, 7,5 minutes with my patients; that wasn’t why I went to medical school. So it began this quest that turned into an almost five-year journey now, to rediscover what I loved about medicine. So that also meant I had to figure out what I hated about medicine.
So I started by blaming everybody: it was the ambulance-chasing malpractice attorneys; it’s big pharma; it’s managed care medicine; it’s the insurance company’s fault. Then I thought, oh no, it’s the reductionist medical system, we’re so, so sub-specialized, you know? I’m an OB/GYN, so I was seeing these patients that had pelvic problems.
But I knew that there was something more significant than the pelvis that was causing their issues. But I hadn’t been trained to look at that. So I thought that’s the problem, like you go to your doctor, your pinky finger hurts, and he says, “I’m sorry, I’m a thumb doctor.” Nobody’s looking at the whole picture. So I thought integrative medicine was the answer. And so I joined an integrative medicine practice, and it was so much better; I got a whole hour with my patients.
The crucial part of your health | I need to look outside
I got to listen to my patients, we didn’t accept managed care medical insurance, so it was much better. And then I still kept bumping up against something, though, because now if you came in and you were depressed, we were giving you herbs and amino acids instead of Prozac. If you had other physical symptoms – but it was still this allopathic model, where the answer was outside of you, and I had to give you something that you could take.
So I thought maybe that’s not the problem; perhaps I need to look outside of that and find new tools for my healing toolbox. So I started working with all these complementary and alternative health care providers, whom I love, acupuncturists, naturopaths, and nutritionists.
And I started treating my patients with needles in their energy meridians and raw foods, and that was great. But I kept bumping up against the same thing: patients would get better from one symptom, and if we didn’t treat the root cause of why they had that physical symptom in the first place, they just wound up getting a new sign. So at this point, I was both frustrated and curious, and I started down this path of trying to figure out what makes a body healthy and what makes us sick.
And I dug into the medical literature and spent a year researching all of the randomized controlled clinical trials out there. And I decided this is it. I’m going to figure it out, and I’m going to find the answer. And I spent hours in the library, researching, reading, studying.
The crucial part of your health What I found blew my frigging mind, stuff nobody ever taught me in medical school. All the things we think of as health, all the things we think matter, they do. It matters that you exercise; you eat well; it matters that you see the doctor.
But nobody taught me that what matters is healthy relationships, having a healthy professional life, expressing yourself creatively, being spiritually connected. Having a healthy sex life, being healthy financially, living in a healthy environment, being mentally healthy, and of course, all the things we traditionally associate with health also matter, all the things that nurture the body.
The data on this is unbelievable. Lots of it is not in the traditional journals that you read that doctors read; a lot of it’s in psychological and sociological literature. But if you look deep, this is in The New England Journal of Medicine. It’s in The Journal of the American Medical Association, and it’s coming out of Harvard, Yale, and Johns Hopkins. His real data are proving that these things are just as important, if not more.
She runs marathons, takes 20 supplements a day
I had this patient; she’s a raw vegan, she runs marathons, takes 20 supplements a day, sleeps eight hours a night, does everything her doctor tells her, she’s got a chart of this fat, and she’s still got multiple health problems. So she had heard about my philosophy, I had started practicing with my patients, and I had an intake form that’s about 20 pages long, and it asks about all those things, relationships, work-life, spiritual life, creative life, sex life, all of these things that make you whole.
So she came, and she filled out her form, and she said, “Doctor, what’s my diagnosis?” And I said, “Honey, your diagnosis is you’re in a freaking abusive marriage. You hate your job, you feel creatively thwarted, you’re spiritually disconnected, and you haven’t let go of that resentment you have against your father who molested you as a child. Your body is never going to get well until you heal that.” So if taking care of the body isn’t the most crucial part of being healthy, what is? It’s caring for the mind, caring for the heart, caring for the soul, tapping into what I call your Inner Pilot Light.
The crucial part of your health | Every stone is dependent on the other
Now your pilot light is that essence, authentic, sincere, and real part of you, that spiritual, divine spark that always knows what’s right for you. You’re born with it, it goes with you when you die, and it always knows the truth about you and your body. It comes to you in whispers; it’s your intuition; it’s that beautiful part of you that is your biggest fan; the part that writes you love letters. And that is the biggest healer you can tap into, better than any medicine, better than any doctor.
So based on everything that I learned, I developed a new wellness model. And it was based, not on the pie charts and pyramids that many of the wellness models I had studied were based on. I found it on the cairn. Have you guys seen these things around San Francisco? These stacks of balanced stones, I love them, I’ve always loved them. I’m an artist, so it appeals to me visually. But I love the interdependence.
Every stone is dependent on the other; you can’t just pull one stone out without the whole thing crumbling. And the most precarious rock is the one on top. That’s the body; that’s where I think of the body. The body is the stone on top. When any of the facets of what makes you whole get out of balance, the body is the first to start whispering, and the foundation stone is your Inner Pilot Light, that true essence of you, that vulnerable, transparent part of you. So based on that, I created this model that I call the Whole Health Cairn. And this is what my next book is about.
It’s taking all of the facets of what makes you whole; it’s about self-healing from the core, and once you recognize this, you have all the tools you need to start your healing journey. So all of the facets of what makes you whole are surrounded by what I call the healing bubble. This is love and gratitude, and pleasure. And science proves that all of those things are good for your health; they are the glue that holds everything together.
The crucial part of your health | What’s the real diagnosis, and what can you do about it?
So I challenge you. If you have any physical symptoms, if you’re suffering from the epidemic that plagues the developed world, I want you to ask yourself, “What’s the real reason I’m sick or suffering? What’s out of balance in my whole health, cairn?” What’s the real diagnosis, and what can you do about it? How can you be more transparent?
How can you open yourself up to more possibilities? How can you be more honest with yourself about what you need and who you are? If any of you were lucky enough to see Brene Brown’s awesome TEDTalk about the power of vulnerability – I know a lot of nodding heads; I love it – it’s so fabulous. Still, it talks about the science behind being authentic, being vulnerable, being transparent.
It generates love and intimacy, which increases oxytocin and endorphins and reduces harmful stress hormones like cortisol and adrenaline. When we let our true self be seen, when we make our Inner Pilot Light radiate, we heal from the inside out, and it’s more potent than anything medicine can give you from the outside. So I challenge you to prescribe for yourself. No doctor can do this for you. We can provide you with drugs, we can give you surgery, and sometimes you need that.
That’s the jump-start of the self-healing process, the crucial part of your health. But to heal to the core, so that you don’t develop new symptoms, so you don’t need another surgery — you’ve got to write your prescription. So I ask you, “What is it that you need, what does your body need to get healthy? What is it that you need to change? What needs to be tweaked in your life?” If you knew that stripping off all of your masks and letting us see that beautiful light within you was the solution to your health problems, would you be willing to do it? I dare you.